Just when I thought it was over, I heard the news I’d been dying to hear but never thought I would. It’s no secret Nicole and I had problems in the past. I think we both reached a point in our life where it felt the only thing we had in common was the past. Our relationship was tested to the max from day one. Both of us so young 17/21 and living on our own, moving cross country to try new things, moving back (couldn’t live without mom..ahh) and then a baby boy on the way. Wow!! grow up over night, we tried.
It was never horrible but the arguments would just get so hurtful and so frequent. We always got over it “we thought”. Then came the summer I will never forget. We had extra money saved for the house remodel and found out it wasn’t worth it so we decided to live the high life for once, we earned it. We spent a lot of money at the bar, a lot. It makes us sick knowing how much money we wasted. Well our arguments just got worse and we distanced ourselves. We got to the point of pretty much living single. I went out, she went out, we went out. All with the same group of so called friends so jealousy wasn’t a huge issue but still an issue.
We both made mistakes we regret but also know made us stronger today. I’m not blaming alcohol but we both abused it the last two summers. I quit drinking over the winter and Nicole finally told me tonight she is done. As you read in her post there is a time and a place for her to drink and nothing makes me happier then to hear those words. I love this women with all my heart and can’t stand the thought of life without her. The way she laughs,smiles and cries without meaning too. I think about her all the time.