My New Obsession

This post is partly due to the fact I have some major writers block and due to the fact that I have unleashed my competitive side. I have never really been competitive about anything. Winning was never important to me. That’s not to say I never won at anything, I just didn’t care one way or the other. I guess I just never had that ONE thing that brought it out of me. Until now!!!

For the last four Fridays we have gotten together 5-6 of us to play poker. I usually just watched and sometimes I’d deal, but never had the itch to play. One night I decide to play a hand and then it happened. My heart started pounding as hard as it possibly could without jumping right out of my chest!! I had a hand, a good one, and I knew it!! I was so nervous, I was sitting here with fairly experienced poker players. (Experienced as any joe blow that plays poker every Friday night) As far as they knew I didn’t know a good hand from a hole in the wall. Little did they know I’ve been watching the Poker Tournament on TV. So I bet…wait…bet…wait…and I did it!!! I won.

I can’t even tell you the feeling I had and have every time I win just a hand. It’s amazing!! I beat out all the guys and it was down to me and my brother, the biggest bluffer of them all. I took him out!!! Foolish, foolish boys think they can bluff me!!! I’m addicted to it now. I watch it on TV, Jason and I play almost every night just for fun. Oh and I beat him almost every time!!!! Who knew it? I’m a pretty good poker player!!! Now I play to win, sure have fun, but WIN!!! It’s the one thing I look forward to each week. It’s probably a good thing I’m not a millionaire and it’s probably a good thing I don’t live near a casino. I can see this being a big problem. I’ll stick to my weekly $5 games for now. Jason is looking at poker schedules at Mystic Lake Casino, it’s kinda expensive to buy in, $150, but Mondays are free buy ins and that could be very dangerous!!!!!

So what is your obsession or guilty pleasure? I know we had this as a Question of the Day but is there that one thing that brings out the competitive side of you? Mine has been unleashed so watch out….MWAHAHAHA!!!!!!

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9 Responses to My New Obsession

  1. Joy says:

    I’ve been thinking a lot about this before knowing what to say. I have an extremely addictive personality and it doesn’t seem to matter what I’m doing “at the time,” I get addicted to it. Right now it’s the whole blogging thing. I do know that the blogging has to slow down because I’m not doing a lot of other things that I like to do because all I do is sit here. My bird-feeders were empty all last week and that is something that I have never done before but heaven forbid I’d get a comment and not see it right away.

    But I go through this with knitting, reading, scrap-booking and last winter it was guitar hero. Outside of the initial purchase, it’s not that big of a deal. I mean who really cares what I do all day while I’m here alone anyway?

    But…when money is involved, it’s gambling and I have a very strong opinion about that. I’m not going to get into it but I’ve known people who have been very close to me who had this terrible “disease” and it just gets into you and you lose control of yourself. All you think about is that”next time” and the next win. If you lose, all the reason to go back the next time cuz you think you can get your money back. And really, unless you “always” win, you never come out ahead gambling because the lost money will always be lost. Even if you won $1000, you have to count all the money you lost before you won that “big” one. Once you lose, it’s gone. There’s always something else and it’s called “beginners luck” and let me tell you something, that is so true. Right now it’s giving you a sense of “you can’t lose” and that’s how it pulls you in. It really is like a strong drug.

    If it’s costing you $5 a week, that’s pretty cheap entertainment. I mean, you can’t even go out to eat for that or go to a movie and your not even spending any money for gas. But it’s when it consumes you and it’s all you think about, it can get you into some very big trouble. I’m glad you don’t live near a casino too.

    I have to stay away from things like that because like I said above, I can be very easily addicted to things. If it’s in your own home and it’s $5 a week, I feel it’s okay but if you started to go to a casino once a week, then I’ve be very, very afraid.

  2. nikki says:

    I would never go to the casino every week, maybe once a year. I see it this way, I’m home with my husband not out drinking and wasting money. $5 a week for a lot of entertainment for us is a good deal as you said. We all sat down last night and played just for fun or the bragging rights. I didn’t really mean for it to come out like I’m addicted to it. I finally have something I’m really good at, and the rush of having a good hand is great.

  3. SanityFound says:

    I used to love playing poker but that rush of a good hand was too good – like Joy says, I have an addictive nature so tend to be weary of that “rush”, same goes for everything else its all a fine line with my DNA. Glad you are having fun – in the UK we used to play with all our coins, always only coins no more than 50p or in your currency about 50c (?), always with Mexican food yum!

  4. SKL says:

    I come from a family full of addictive people! I have been way addicted to things, but I’d know it and eventually quit cold turkey. I have gotten addicted to computer games (the solitaire type) and then deleted them from my computer so they wouldn’t ruin my life. Right now I’m pretty addicted to the Internet. Some days I do OK but other days I’m really bad. Usually when I’m kinda down about “real life” is when I’ll sit on the Internet all day and get no real work done. This really doesn’t work for me since I’m a work-at-home mom. I do force myself to get at least a minimum amount of work done most days – and some days/weeks I work a real marathon – but it’s really not a healthy balance.

    I have relatives who are way worse than me. We live in Ohio, where you have to drive pretty far or fly to gamble for real money, so we’ve been safe so far. But they keep trying to open gambling places around here, and I keep praying that such things stay inaccessible to certain of my loved ones. Honestly, I don’t think anyone can afford to be a real “gambler.”

    I have friends who love to gamble, but they are smart about it. They go for a weekend and set aside a specific amount of money that they will spend. They win or lose and come home. It’s exciting for them, and their logic is that they would have spent the same money on any other fun weekend vacation. I say, if you can keep it under control, more power to ya, but a lot of people don’t seem to realize when they have a “problem.”

    When I was a kid, we played poker a lot, but we would use buttons or pennies. Nothing really at stake other than our pride. (Well, a couple times we tried “strip poker” but we dressed in so many layers that it really wasn’t risky.)

  5. nikki says:

    I think if I really ever got ADDICTED any one of my family members would put me in my place. And too I don’t have the means to be addicted to anything that costs a whole lot of money. And if we did Jason wouldn’t have that. I’m just having fun and really it’s a foreign feeling all together being competitive. It’s nice to know I have it in me ya know?

  6. SKL says:

    Yeah – I quit playing chess when I was about 10 because a couple of my siblings were way too good and I could never, ever win. My older brother is one of “those” people who was winning tournaments and other contests by his early teens. When I was about 22, a friend who didn’t know how to play chess asked me to teach her. So I did, and the funny thing was that without even expecting to, I kept check-mating her within four or five moves. So even though she was a novice, I suddenly thought, maybe I’m not so bad at chess after all. But, I have still never had the nerve to play against anyone “good.”

  7. Amber says:

    Gosh… I hate to sound like a “wet willie” here but… Nikki maybe this isn’t such a brilliant idea. Gambling is one of those things that grows. You win a bit, you get a bit bolder. You really can’t afford to lose can you?

    Put the $5 in the bank and play parchesi, or checkers. Something without money involved. Just my humble opinion. I have seen too many people think “I can handle it” and end up owing tons of money in the blink of an eye.

    When Bailey gets out on his own, and he no longer needs his parents to support him, then you gamble. Until then, while you are Mom… well… maybe some things aren’t worth risking?

  8. Sue says:

    I knew I was competitive, but just in the last couple of years it has grown! I played 3 sports in high school and always did my best and wanted to win, but in the end I knew that I wouldn’t be making millions playing sports so it was something I did for fun, to be with my friends, and to stay in shape.

    Fast forward to now. My husband and I have been playing volleyball in an adult league on Sunday nights for a couple of years now. Let’s just say I never knew how competitive I REALLY was! It’s a bunch of people getting together for fun, but I love it when we crush the other team. I love it when I have a great night and our team is working together like a well oiled machine and we pull out the victory. Do I get depressed when we loose or I play bad? No, but that drive inside makes me want to play harder and do better next time. It’s just fun to win and to find something that you’re good at.

  9. Jane says:

    I live pretty close to Canada and most of the bars have those gambling machines in them and they are nothing but trouble and I’ve seen to much heartache caused by them so I’m not one to talk of gambling. And also because I’m to cheap!!!!

    We do an awful lot of game playing but nothing that uses money. I just feel I work to hard for my money to lose it and then I’d get mad. That’s just me though. I know a lot of others like it.

    I get the feeling Nikki that you just liked beating the guys and it would have been just as nice beating them at something that didn’t involve money too.

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