I wonder how many people are out there that are afraid of going to the doctor, dentist etc.? I can’t say I’m entirely afraid, but more like nervous. I know many people who will go to the doctor at the slightest symptoms. Or for just a cold or rash. I guess I’ve been lucky with Bailey, he goes to the doctor every 3 months but that’s just for his ADHD checkups. He’s very rarely sick with something that requires a doctors attention. I always make sure he gets to the dentist, eye doctor or what have you. When it comes to me, well….lets just say I kinda forget, actually I’m very aware of the fact that I should go, honestly I choose not to.
I can explain the dentist thing, I had braces for almost 4 years and had to go every month to get them tightened. If anyones had braces, I bet you can still feel that pain! I can, that hurt so bad!!!! Kinda like when people tell you, “oh you’ll forget ALL about the pain you went through with labor once you hold that baby.” I DON’T THINK SO! I didn’t, in fact that feeling is still deep inside me and I remind Bailey of it often! 🙂
When I was close to delivery I had false labor (in my back) in the middle of the night. I didn’t want anyone to worry, I just took my big belly and my HOLY $HIT contractions and went into the living room and dealt with it by myself. Yea…I got a lot of $hit for that!! In 2005 I had a hysterectomy, do you think I’ve been back to see her since?? Nope! She would yell at me now, that’s why I haven’t gone!! I know…stupid huh? I figure the pain is mostly gone so why go back? Then a couple months ago I felt a lump in one of my breasts, THAT scared me enough to go in. It was nothing, thank the heavens above!! It did scare me enough to be more aware of my body and to take better care of it. I haven’t been able to breath through my nose for 15 years because of the amount of broken noses I’ve had. In which none of them I went to the doctor for. I’ve learned to just deal with it. Now I have a horrible chipped tooth that requires a dentist and a pain in my neck that has lasted for 3 months now!!
This isn’t from a lack of trying. I try to go. I really do. I tell the secretary “DO NOT let me cancel!” So really, it’s their fault, if only they would listen! Kidding, it’s not their fault but I do warn them I will try to cancel, they laugh but I’m very serious. Jason says he’s going to trick me into going to all the appointments by telling me we’re going somewhere else and he’ll just take me in. No backing out of that!! I kind of wish he would. It’s the anticipation I cannot handle. If I have a way of backing out, I WILL!
So this is my list of goals to do before March. Not only make appointments for my annual, my neck, my teeth and my nose, but actually go to them. Am I the only one like this? I know I need to pull on my big girl panties and stop being such a sissy lala!!! PLEASE tell me I’m not alone here!!!!!!! I really do not look forward to this. The results, yes, the whole process and everything that applies to getting the results…not too thrilled about that. So hopefully with a little time of me “manning” up, I will have healthy teeth, a nose I can breath out of and the only pain in my neck will be that of certain men in my life, haha!! 😉