MOM, It never dawned on me until I was in the shower the other night thinking to myself “Bailey will never understand the amount of love Nicole and I have for him until he has a child of his own.”
What did I just say?
Mom, I’m sorry!!!!
I don’t even really know where to start. I never meant I hated you. I never meant I wished I didn’t live there. How were those attitudes so easy to get thrown on you? I wish I could go back and change some things but I can’t. I don’t know how hard it would have been to move to another state so young and be on my own. How could you deal with being such a young mother so far from home? How in the world could you decide being a single mother would turn out in better in the long run? I look at Nicole and don’t think I could do this parenting thing with out her. Sending Bailey to the Learning Tree for the day while I go to work for probably minimum wage in a dirty ass warehouse. I don’t remember everything but enough to know, we, YOU, didn’t have it easy. You were in charge. How was my, OUR lives going to turn out? Growing up I know I got more difficult with age. Why? I don’t know. Looking back it tears me up.
Precious moment figurine hitting the ground in anger
13 year old all stars…….Nebraska……… pizza.
Not coming home after school……… junior high I think
Every function in Canada………Softball reunion in particular…….10th grade………laundry
Every family vacation…………..Lutsen in particular here…….Chateau Leveau……..11th grade
Staying at Tims house for a week……senior year…..making you call Tims mom……embarrassing
I don’t know why or how I could/can defend you so easily but be the first to hurt you. If you know anything about a boy or a man when in trouble, hurt or just scarred shitless, there’s only one person we call or want. I’m so glad you were/are such a stronger person then I gave you credit for. That you cared enough to put up with my terrible teens.