I LOVE being a mom, not too many bad things about being a mom. For me, there’s really only one thing bad about being a mom, or a parent in general. Bad is maybe the wrong choice of word, so we’ll say the toughest. The toughest thing for me about being a mom is letting go. I always knew I would be a mom and a wife. I truly believe if we do all have a purpose in this world, that was mine.
When Bailey was a baby, I always thought about how I would handle certain situations. Everyday situations like, sending him to school one day, letting him go on a field trip without me, having sleep overs at friends house (still haven’t done that one yet!.) When Bailey went to preschool I was OK, it was mornings only 3 times a week and I spent that time with one of my really good friends. I love that and I loved the fact it was only 3 hours. Then Kindergarten came and he was gone every day, still half days but everyday. As much as children need that slow transition from being home to going to school everyday, I think us parents need that too. I did anyway! So 1st grade comes along and he’s gone all day everyday! WTH, how did that happen?? It’s inevitable, they will grow up, you cannot stop them!
So fast forward to the present day. We now live in small community where a lot of Bailey’s friends live. His father, myself and Bailey have talked about safety and rules. All the other kids ride their bikes around all day, I’m sure checking in, but still! I am having such a hard time with this. We said next year we will get walkie talkies so we always have communication with each other. Well today his best friend Bailey came over to play and after a while he asks me, in a very sweet way, “can I please go to Bailey’s and play at his house?” “just for a little bit, please mom?” UGH this is where the bad part of being a mom comes in!
I let him go on a few conditions. One, he go NO where else but Baileys. Two, obviously not talk to strangers, and be home by 2:30. That gave him just over an hour. I can’t even begin to tell you what I did not get accomplished in that hour. What did get accomplished is a whole lot of worrying though! A lot can happen in one hour, a lot can happen 5 minutes. He followed the rules and was home by 2:30. He did show me responsibility today and unless he proves otherwise he can continue going to Bailey’s house. He can only go around our one block on his bike by himself or with his friends. No further. It’s hard for me and his dad but it’s good for him. He’s proud of himself and he really is a responsible kid. We are pretty lucky, that doesn’t make it any easier though!