I was one of those people who never thought I’d quit smoking. It’s probably a good thing I got sick or I never would have. Hey, I loved smoking. But there are so many things I don’t miss about it. I don’t miss the dirty STINKY ash trays. I don’t miss the ashes’ mess. My desk used to get so bad and so did my car. Those pesky ashes fly everywhere. I don’t miss worrying about where my cigarettes are and if I have a working lighter. It’s also really nice to be out somewhere and not being “antsy” about when will I have my next one. So many things I don’t miss.
I do have to say though, I MISS SMOKING. I really do. I loved my cigarettes! I don’t think about smoking very often and NO, I won’t smoke but there are times I really have the urge. I think the worst time for me is at night when Paul and I are Wii bowling. I constantly had a cigarette going when we did that. The other night I said something to Paul about “I really missed smoking while we did this” and he asked me if that meant I was going to smoke again and I said NO WAY but I do miss it. I smoked for more than 35 years and I’m sure it’s normal for me to miss it. I’m also not on the patch or gum. I just didn’t like the side effects of that dang patch. The only thing I’m using is Bazooka Joe.
I’ve also found out that I’m very impatient where my health is concerned and I want things to be fixed RIGHT NOW. I also don’t like ANY side effects of the medications I was on. Listen, if I’m thirsty, I want to be thirsty because my body is telling me I’m thirsty and not because of a stupid pill I’m taking. I’ve found that the side effects of the medicine are sometimes worse that what’s wrong with you in the first place.
What I’d really like to know though is why is it so easy for people to think it’s so easy to quit smoking? I’ve had people tell me I’d be nuts if I smoked yet they are pretty overweight or have other issues of their own. Why is it so easy for them to say that not smoking is so easy? I feel like telling them it would be so easy to diet and not be fat. That wouldn’t be nice though would it? I know people who are on all kinds of medication for one thing or another and I wonder why they wouldn’t try to change either their diet or lifestyle so they wouldn’t have to be on the medication. Kind of like, when you eat that “snack” at night, I’d like to have a cigarette. When you “snack” on something else, I’d like another cigarette. People think it’s different because we “have” to eat but some of the most vocal people in my life have health issues but they are the ones telling me not to smoke.
I know this is just me but I’d have done just about anything to not walk around with the oxygen tank with me 24-7 so why wouldn’t someone want to change what they could so they wouldn’t have to take all those pills and medications? Like I said before, the side effects of some of those meds are awful and there’s no way I’d want to be on some of them for the rest of my life.
I guess my point is that we all have bad habits. Whether it’s over-eating or over-shopping or we have OCD’s about one thing or another or are afraid of flying or what have you, so why would anyone judge that smoking is so easy to quit when they have their own bad habits? Just why is it we can say whatever we want to a smoker but God forbid we tell someone they’re fat or a drunk or a pig or anything else, but it’s okay to say you’re an idiot for smoking? I just think any addiction is hard and one shouldn’t be so quick to point out that one thing is easier than another to quit.